Get Wisdom

If I'm completly honest at the moment I'm running on empty... I'm sucking down coffee and chocolate like some crazy woman and I've not been outside much either. I'm stuck. My spirit is empty , out of oil and all thats left for me is to scrape the sides and hope for the best - sounds completley unattractive doesnt it. But its true. For all the talk about letting the world wait awhile - I've had some really great times with God and hearing him but i've not been consistantly feeding my spirit and now its overflowing into my life. And its not pretty..... I dont think I've realised how somehow the God stuff inside of us actually is the fuel that keeps us going... not untill I've found myself on the otherside of the fence...
See for the last few months I've been running round getting this or that for the needs of the house or the family in my spare time and I've not prioritised just sitting and allowing myself the time to just 'BE'.  I know for myself it's in the moments where I stop with a cuppa and my bible/journal or just to sit and look at the view this is when I'm able to hear best from God and recieve. Because if all we do is give out ~ sooner or later its going to catch up on us, and I hadnt put two and two together till now as to what I'd been doing...
So having realised whats been going down and now living with the consequences, I really want to change this picture for myself.  So when the kids are asleep or when I've got time to myself at night I want to start tapping into God again, and putting myself in a position to recieve.
How ever that looks at the time will probably be different for me than it is for you...but the point is... I need, and I want Gods wisdom. Because I'm so lacking in it at the moment, and I'm tired of just scraping by.
 I want to start reading the word again in those moments of quiet just to wash over me and not nessecarily "Try" to get anything out of it as I often do try....
I dont know if you can relate to any of this, would love to hear from you if you do...
This picture of me with Zephyr is one of my favourites, it was the first time he'd discovered flowers and it was just a beautiful moment.
 It reminds me of how our heavenly Father wants to share those little moments with us where we just sit and are refreshed, smell the flowers and recieve rather than chase after refreshment through things which at the end of the day actually drain us more....
xoxo


Letting the World wait a while

Our little family has been on a small adventure moving around like nomads for the last 3 months but now we are finally HOME. A Beautiful big house that's ours to live, laugh, play and grow in and I'm so Grateful to my big heavenly father for answering my hearts cry for somewhere to nest!
Not only is it far better than what I was even asking him for but all the boys love it too, especially Titus the crazy critter who's defiantly made himself at home here..
.. During this adventure across the sea, hoping and straining to see some sort of new land or anything that might give us that next compass bearing, i felt God said very clearly and somewhat to my relief.... "let the world wait awhile"...

and I did... 
I dont think its all that bad when we go through times where we withdraw in some ways and regroup...I dont think its too heathy for this to be the norm though, for me having no internet was apart of this island like experience...
I think one of the downfalls with so much Internet 'EVERYthing' these days is theres this compulsion that we have to be in touch with everyone and everything...well that's what I feel anyways.  And in someways I can do that but in others I just cant keep ontop of it. I'm not very good at life once I feel pulled in multiple directions all at once everything goes down hill... 
I've defiantly found myself falling into seasons where it felt like I observed everyone elses life more than I was participating in my own and this was a real challenge for me trying to balance how much time I'd spend (time normally I didn't really have to spare either) on the Internet facebooking, looking at blogs, email, online shopping, trademe, whatever the flavour of the week was..... theres so much out there... so I was actually RELIEVEd when we didn't have Internet during this time and the local Library became our Internet cafe...
Do you remember what It was like when you were little and you really had no idea what happened outside your neighbourhood/school/family and all you really enjoyed was playing, dreaming and exploring?
I sometimes think that the only problem with the Internet (maybe this is just my problem...) is that it can create a whole lot of Spectators and not alot of Participators...
I feel really challenged at the moment to start really dreaming again and creating and I guess this can be a season thing too as sometimes you just build and build your ideas until something comes out from within you.  But I guess what I'm saying is there a place for both being a spectator and a participator and I think that you need the balance of both in order to really feel fulfilled and to see the beautiful things that Gods placed within us come to fruition...
I decided to make a Re*l Home*de Board for my Pintrest page cause I think its fun to see "real" homemade handmade stuff and for it to be just as it is, a little bit raw unstyled and all... I hope you make one for yourself so I can see all your homemade with love creations too!  
I had a conversation with a friend about this whole Internet use thing and she said that she'd heard that the word Addiction means Abhorrent use...which i thought made alot of sense to which I asked myself the question Do I use the Internet too much? Its so easy to get lost down the rabbit hole of the net as you remember half an hour after getting on what it was you were getting on for... she also reminded me that the Internet has its benefits.  Though it was just a simple way of putting it, I thought that's so right the Internet can be really helpful and handy, it can give you some great ideas, help you keep in touch with people ... the list goes on and on...
I think for me I needed some time away so that I could remember what the benefits were for having the Internet instead of just using it for the sake of it and letting so much time slide away...
I guess what I'm trying to say is that when I felt like God challenged me to "let the world wait a while" a part of that was stepping back from the Internet and I felt like there was some significance in that, and maybe there's something in that for you I don't know...  When you have less clutter of everyone else's lives, ideas, etc in our minds I believe that we can start to hear better whats in your own heart waiting to come out, and what God might just be trying to say to us...

I painted this while ago but it reminds me of all the potential we carry and how sometimes we just have to trust what Gods already given us and just start with that. Its about having fun with whats right in front of you like that little kid who could make a toy out of anything, and she had great imagination and could make a something out of nothing...not afraid to let the world wait awhile while she has an adventure of her own...
I don't know whether anything I've written resonates with anyone, I'm not really sure why it is I even write this blog sometimes, I guess its like I was saying before I'm starting with what I've got right in front of me and its all I need.  Its all we all need.
 So maybe I can challenge you to let the world wait awhile whatever that "world" might be to you and see what you discover is waiting for you...
Love Carolyn
Ps... Its good to be HOME
xoxo 

When you cannot see the shore, not even a cloud in sight.../preparing for rain

Lately I've been finding myself questioning God, even arguing with him about whats happening with getting our next house... and I'm trying to figure out where does trust really come into things - when your telling yourself; on one hand you believe God will provide something and he's got the bigger picture mapped out but on the other hand stressing and trying to make something happen...

But man to be honest it's hard when your in the middle of a promise... and within yourself it feels like your floundering, doing  360* in the middle of your sea, with no landmarks to go off anymore and not even a cloud in sight...



searching for The CLOUD*

...then I remembered I'd heard this tale before...

{the story in a nutshell /a vague retelling}

In one Kings chapter eighteen there is the story of Elijah who summons all the people in the land and asks them basically Do you believe in God or don't you? And when he doesn't get much a response he creates a test to show them that God is God and the people could trust him...
he told the false prophets (the wise guys of the time) which the people had been trusting in, to build an alter but not to set fire to it and they were to cry out to their God to be the firestarter...and Elijah would do the same to his God...

I had no idea really what this story was all about when i went looking for it in my bible I had just remembered something about a cloud appearing so when I FINALLY found it and started reading the chapter I was really SURPRISED when these words jumped off the page since the minuet before I'd been arguing with God about whether I could trust him or not...

..."How long will you waver between two opinions? If the LORD is God, follow him; but if Baal[the name for their god] is God, follow him." (1 kings 18:21)

Straight out I felt God was saying really clearly and simply "Do you trust me or do you not?" 

If you read this story the language that describes these two groups of people are very different...The one group knowing what they wanted to happen worked frantically, they shouted, they danced around, they shouted louder and tried harder for their fire to be lit...and in the end all their blood sweat and tears produced nothing..."But there was no response, no one answered, no one paid attention..." All their work was a waste of time. (this speaks to me about what we often do when something isnt happening fast enough we start running round trying to make it happen faster)

But in the other camp Elijah only doing what God ask of him stepped back and said "Answer me Lord, answer me, so these people will know that you, Lord, are God, and that you are turning their hearts back to you..."

~

I have come to know God particularly over the last few years as an amazing Father, a kind hearted provider for his children. And a Father who is deeply concerned about their needs. He hears us, and wants to relate to us in a way that is unique to us all. {like in a family how the mother has a unique relationship with each of her children} He not only has the Heart of a father for us as a protector, provider and encourager; he also has the heart of a Mother towards us, to sooth our worries and teach us how to navigate life, comforting us in the tough times but also being there to enjoy the good days too.

But mainly I've come to see that if He asks something of us he will not leave us hanging, and he will answer {tho sometimes his timing is not always ours nor the answer what we expect...}

In relation to the house stuff at the moment tho, I realised sitting there feeling sorry for myself that I'd become more like the false prophets than Elijah - they shouted louder, got themselves into a frenzy trying to make something happen that God had never asked THEM to do...on the other hand Elijah was following the instructions he felt God had given him, we know this because in vs 36 he prays "LORD the God of Abraham...let it be known today that you are God in Israel and that I am your servant and have done all these things at your Command...

In relation to the house we feel like God has told us to trust him and that he will provide something and he will not embarrass us.  Obviously we are doing the basics and looking to see whats available but at the end of the day us looking harder will not make a house magically appear... in the Story Elijah did what God asked and left the hard work up to him and he came through even though it was a seemly impossible task {to make water soaked wood catch of fire!}

I believe its really important to Live out of what God is saying to you rather than what others are telling you to do - because if you do this you will only be running round wasting your time and You'll be the one getting burnt out - hehe BURNt out - get it?....(oh dear, small minds syndrom!)


the whole waiting thing has been the biggest challenge for me, because in the process of looking for that cloud to signal land I've often caught myself paddling too hard against the current and squinting into the sun to catch sight of it, rather than sitting down and allowing him to bring it into being...

Basically in Elijahs time God did the impossible and vapourised the alter which Elijah made just to make a great statment - and to me this speaks of HIS ability to do things that in our mind seem crazy and impossible but for him its a walk in the park
 ...



So that CLOUD*

The next part I LOVE because such was the faith by then of Elijah he basically tells the king to prepare for rain {LOTS AND LOTS OF CLOUDS!} {it hadn't rained in 3 years, but God promised Elijah that he would send rain to the land} he went up to a hill to look out across the seas and he prayed, And he waited...7 times he asked his servant to go look towards the sea and "the seventh time the servant reported, "A cloud as small as a man's hand is rising from the sea!"...

....this was the story that had came to mind after I felt a bit lost at sea not even a cloud in sight and I was reminded that my story is not so original and he has shown himself over and over again that he is faithful to the promises he has given us, but sometimes we just gotta hang on to the main sail and wait and see how God does the impossible for us and reveals that Dream he's placed within our heart come to be...

And so after a head check this is where I find myself... believing again for land, looking out to the horizon and for that small cloud to rise up from the sea...

The clouds a coming...wait and see! 




Topsy turvy sea*

my tree house box gets to come with me when we move!!


toystoystoystoys = lots of boxes!




Boxes + toys =



= fun!!

We moved in the weekend and its seems like with kids everything gets a bit trickier!! where did all those toys come from anyways? its like they have infested the place and you don't really notice them until you try pack them away and then its like they come alive at night like in the "nutcracker" and you find them again in a new nook....and seriously when we moved the couch... wow so that's where all the books went, who knew so much could be slid under a inch gap!!! where there's a toddler there's a way!


...sooo about that moving... I hadn't really thought about it until I was in the next house and all of a sudden I had this feeling of being totally in the deep end and out to sea far from shore...


 I didn't realise how having a secure place to live was like having a security blanket until we'd left the four walls of the last place. How quickly we can trust in things over God...we have the use of a house for the next 5weeks but after that we have no plans...I also realised that somtimes we dont deal with change very well...

During the last few weeks Gods been giving me lots of pictures - its the biggest way I hear him speak {pictures are my language, I love that he speaks to each of us uniquely and personally...}

...the picture I got after that initial sinking feeling was a picture of a boat in a bath.

And it really sums up alot at the moment as it kind of feels like we are bobbing round in water with no place to land, and no prospect of a shore to call our own...

but quite honestly I'm so used to this way of step by step living that it just seems normal now... but also only because Gods really been faithful in giving me little pictures along the way to encourage me that we are going in the right direction..and just cause theres not shore it doesnt mean theres no HOPE..

In the past when James was working full time things were super stable {bordering on boring} and it was like God was in front of us and we could clearly see our life before us, but then when we felt him wanting us to move to ChCh and do a "youth with a mission" school our lives totally changed and we have been really learning to trust in him - for everything... in the past to be honest I didn't really to do this, nor was inclined to lean on him for not just direction in life but even day to day stuff...and now its like rather than holding our hand and showing us life he's got his hands on our shoulders and it's us just stepping as he shows us our next move... and I think now that we are here, it definitely makes you feel very 'present' in life.. and i have to say I kinda like this new way...


I think sometimes God lets us feel out of our depth so that we turn our eyes back to him, but I believe that he will never let us Be out of our depth and that he always has us right in the palm of his hands...

{the lesson from the waters of Marah and Elim}
I was thinking about the this whole journey thing and thought of the Israelites and how they wandered in the desert for 40 years, for a journey that physically should have only taken 11 days!.. and it struck me that  how their journey began set the tone I believe for the rest of what would come "...for three days they travelled in the desert without finding water..." {exodus 15:22} but when they did find it, it wasn't what they were asking for and it was bitter (Marah), but rather than going to God about it, they grumbled and complained amongst themselves and found someone to blame - and in the end God did turn the water sweet, and he made good of their situation..."then he brought them to Elim which had 12 springs, it was a good place."... and it was even better than anything they'd been asking for... but their complaining in the misdt of tough circumstances I believe was part of them taking 40 years to get to the promised land rather than 11 days {geppers I dont want to take 40 years!!}  


I think its a real challenge when life throws you a curve ball, to keep your heart right and not get really negative...And so I think the biggest life lesson I'm learning at the moment is that while you may not be able to see "the promise land" and things arnt what you would have them be, its all about taking it all back to God and still dreaming about the future but all the while not letting the current circumstances make you bitter and stagnant but rather to make the most of the present circumstances...

So this whole thing about a boat floating round a bath with no land in sight is really about believing that God does have our best interests at heart but really wants us to trust in him while we float about and make the most of our situations {party at sea anyone?} and to keep DREAMING about the promise land! To not let the water go stagnant but keep stirring up the dreams he's placed within us cause when the time is right land will come into sight/ and he will smash the walls down of the bath and let that little boat free and then its gonna be another great adventure... but in the mean time I'm learning to just be happy when lifes all out of wack on this Topsy turvy sea!



xoxo


houses + walnuts + elephants = one fun bubble!

I'm writing cause I feel like i'v got all this nervous energy in me just bubbling out like some crazy woman... and just need the outlet for all my thoughts...{like all the bubbles my son is totally obsessed with at the moment - his lastest fun craze is getting us to blow him bubbles as soon as he sees the bubble mixture which we seem to sux at hiding} but anyways not the point....

 the point is, I'm so excited about what we feel like Gods prompting us to look into at the moment.. and thats buying our first house - totally crazy out of the blue never thought it would happen to you - kind of stuff.

for the last few weeks I've had this picture in my mind of a white house in a walnut shell - and its in Gods hands, i dont really know how to unpack this but i'm trying to let God show me rather than jumping to any too quick conclusions...but theres something cool in that picture i just cant see it yet...





Today james came home from church all excited cause the guy speaking was talking about his journey with God providing for him and his family and part of that was him leading them to purchase their family home and long story short this spoke to james heart that God might be saying this for us in this season too...for us with james not having a full time job the possibility of us getting a bank loan is near none, but we feel like we need to look into this all the same... so J is going to the bank proably next week to talk to them...

I got a picture for james a few wks back in relation to stuff he's working through at the moment of a elephant - but it was the story about the mouse who climbed in different parts of the elephant not knowing what this thing was - the concept of taking something bit by bit rather than looking at the whole - and I think thats what Gods asking us to do here...


 Not to look at the big picture but to just step one step at a time as we are lead and to leave the big picture stuff up to him... Cause we are just big kids after all and he doesnt want us to have to worry about all that stuff cause thats his job as our dad...



 so i'm also thinking that thing with the walnut is also about not writing off somthing that initially might not feel or look perfect in a house etc but to allow God to show us the potential within it, going back to that idea i had not so long ago about judging the walnut by its outward shell but actually seing the something of beauty within....
 ahhhh oh gosh now i'm just so darn excited! praise glory be haha!


So really its all about just doing that "one thing" that Gods nudging us to do, because thats all he want us to handle and then the rest is in his hands....

yup I think I might just be able to handle just "one thing" - gosh i love the way God works...

life is so much funner and less stressful when you just focus on that "one thing"...

...anyone want to go house shopping? ;)

xoxo

I hear your heart and it is Beautiful...


I'm so grateful that on the days I feel a bit rotten on the inside God sees me in a another way, this came to mind the other day when I was opening up walnuts... And to my surprise the ones that I thought were probably destined for the rubbish bin, were actually beautiful and rich on the inside...our hearts are a work in progress, and when we let Him, God will make it soft, so its able to recieve and give LOVE, and not be so critical... He is the one who makes it all brand new!


Ezekiel 36:26 "And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart,a heart of flesh."

xoxo 

A Time for Everything

Recently I had some friends over and we spent the evening making collages using old mags.
 This is one of my favourite (easy anyone can do it..) things to do! I've even gotten my husband on board to give it a go :) Because the more I grow in myself and in the way I see God, I've found its soo important to know what season you are in...

{I like to do one of these every few months, the way I do them is just ask God to show me something for the season I'm in and then Go through the magazines and cut out the things that "JUMP" off the page, you know it when you see it... then after I think I've got what I need I stick them down - you can get really complex and try make a picture out of them etc but I prefer just to place them down pretty quickly without over thinking them so that I dont get stuck in perfectionism land x}

How can knowing the season your in be important?... Well...I've been feeling like God was showing me it was time to leave some old things behind in my life and so I started doing a few drawings and then a painting - and now when I look at it I can see the significance of what he was trying to tell me...

About 2 days after I had finished my painting called "BRAVEheart" based on one of my favourite quotes.."In Order to discover new lands one must first be BRAVE enough to loose sight of the shore" our landlord came by and said we had 6 weeks notice to find a new place because they were in need of our house to live after selling their property...

In Oxford, Christchurch where we live its a little town, but its growing really fast with people moving out this way since the earth quakes, so theres not alot of rentals avaliable etc... So when we heard the news we could have easily freaked out and gone into panic mode: "What will we do!!!?", but instead both me and my husband were happy, we could smile and wish our landlord the best...because we knew the season we are in...and it was pretty cool cause both of us were hearing the same things from God - its a time where things are changeing and we are both leaving some old ways behind...

I said to my husband the other day "I just feel so empty" and he said that he'd had a picture that God had shown him of me about a tree without its leaves, it was stripped bare. And in a way it was comforting to hear this because it confirmed the way i was feeling, BUT the coolest part was that I felt like God then said to me 'I'm emptying you, not to leave you exposed but so that I can fill you again...'


And I thought back to my painting of the little boat. Normally I love to draw boats with saplings - its another significant imagry for me - but for some reason this time it never crossed my mind to do this... and I then I realised that the boat was empty...

when it left the shore it hadnt taken anything with it...

 And so I was encouraged that in my feeling empty I was in the exact place that God wanted me to be... Empty but at peace. Not really sure where we will move to next but knowing that God had told us to come to oxford, found us a place for us in this great last season and wasnt about to leave us hanging for the next one...

On top of that - it might seem silly but I also finished the journal I keep to write and draw/collage in - And sometimes when you finish something we have this idea that we wont be able to create anything else as good...have you ever thought that? Well for me it was just another confirmation that I was coming to the end of something and it was a time to start something fresh!

I know you feel empty like a lamp without a shade but soon you will be shining bright again, full and overflowing...
This morning when I woke up I was reminded of this verse "There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under the heavens.."Ecclesiastes 3:1

So I guess my question to you is what season are you in, you may have just had some great things happen to you and its a time to laugh or maybe you've been frustated where your life is at and its a time to search, and ask some questions... if there really is a time for everything what is God saying to you about the place in time that your in, and what is he showing you within yourself?

when I look at my collage and my painting they encourage me to keep going in this season...

When we know the season and time we are in I think it can encourage us to make somthing beautiful out of it...


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A Time for Everything

"There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
     a time to be born and a time to die,



    a time to plant and a time to uproot,  
     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
  a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,    
 a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

...He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end..."


No more Fools Gold

So this weekend we bought a set of digital scales... Last week i went to weigh myself on our $10 crappers from the wharehouse and it gave me 3 different readings (might i add that none of them were favourable!) (not impressed!)so I put up the protest flag and my husband - bless him, gave me the green light to get new ones. Isnt funny how something so simple can bring a moment of joy - new scales - Trala! - so now after my not so flashy week I feel more inspired to get back into the mindset of putting the "good stuff" into my body... and do you remember how i said that I'd been contemplating the shoreline? well I feel like it's now time to cast off the ropes and set sail... I feel like this last week I've been kicking and screaming (alot) trying to keep some of my old ways and old treasures but they are starting to feel heavy like they really are foreign and dont belong in my boat anymore - so whether they like it or not i've decided to leave them on dry land... No more fools Gold I want the real stuff... (ps I'm not just talking about food here I feel like one grumpy mummy at the moment and its not cool, so I know somethings got to change) but in terms of the health stuff I'm so over my head with nutrition I dont know where to start...carrots anyone? But I figure even if its one little inch of change I'll take it - and so I know that I just gotta go for it as long as it takes! Anyone else relate? 

xoxo

Brave Heart

Once when visiting a Marae with my Teachers College Class a Maori Elder said this to us:

"In order to Discover New Lands, One must first be Brave enough to loose sight of the shore"


It was a special wkend at the Marae and one of those moments I've always remembered.
 When I heard this quote I was in my last year of study trying to figure out my future, I was weighing up some big decisions and one of those was leaving an unhealty relationship I was in. 
 It was something that was affecting so many areas of my life but I wasnt willing to acknowledge that at the time. I think if I had stopped and truely thought about what that "shore" really looked like I might have left it sooner than I did.



See In order to leave those old shores to find the new ones I think you first need to understand what it is, you are leaving behind.




I think this is very true in relation to habits. Often when we try to change our bad habits we fail. Because normally the first thing we do is to try something new ~ But I've been thinking about this latly and I think we miss a step. I think the first thing we need to do is to understand what it is you are letting go of, before you replace it with something new.




Letting go of something can be hard, sometimes sad, sometimes fun (like letting go of helium balloons into a bright sky!).


Loosing sight of/ Letting go of, the familiar takes courage, it takes a Brave Heart. But when you discover the New lands, the Green Pastures on the other side, it makes the Bravery all worth it.





At the moment I feel like Gods telling me to have a Brave Heart and leave some old ways behind, I'm still trying to get my head around what exactly they are, its a little scary a little exciting and I can't see the new lands yet......but I know that I have everything within me already that I need to get there....


And so I know that they are coming...
  

The colours look a bit different in original as It was hard to capture the colour right with my camera!



"In order to Discover New Lands, One must first be Brave enough to loose sight of the shore"
I havnt painted for ages but felt to make this - it took on a few differnt forms untill I'm leaving it as is -

Its a reminder to keep going forwards and not to look back for we can all live out of a Brave Heart :) 

xoxo





It's the little things

Latly Its been the little things that have been giving me the greatest thrills. I saw this little shelf/cude thing on Pinterest the other day for your tea and coffee bits and pieces (this area on my bench has been driving me crazy for ages!) and a light went off - I'd had one of those things too! And so after taking off the door of mine, Tada!! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!

So now I'm on the look out for cute glass Jars...Fun fun.  Next I'd found these IQLIGHTs in a Op-shop ages back and had totally forgotten about them till my sister sent them down to me, after I'd left it at her place. THey look really neat in my lounge and in our bedroom - they remind me of clouds - thats why I really like them :)


Dont you just LOVE it how normally its the little things that bring a smile to your dial, even better when they are free! 
XOXO

Sunshine in Winter


When you remember that you are trusting the Creater of the Universe for your next meal, it doesnt seem so scary after all...



"For life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life"

{From The bible the book of Luke chapter 12 verses 23-25}

Iron on Transfers + Buttons + Fabric

I created these when I was pregnant with Titus, they say you get to a stage where you all of a sudden have a urge to nest - for me it was the drive to make stuff.  I cant say I'd ever done much "Craft" before, but while I couldnt use Oils during the pregnancy (cause they say the fumes are bad for the buba) I found a different way to vent the arty bug... As i remember I also made "owly" who features on one of the earliest blogs and also heaps of bunting.... When I look back I cant believe what a luxury It was, to spend day after day, driving my husband nuts with all my projects creative mess - Oh those were the days, I had so much fun!!






(Sorry for the lack of Image quality.......)
How I made these:

 I printed the bird images on iron on transfer paper you put in the printer - and just used images I got off the net (lovemae wall decals) Our printer was really average and running out of ink so all the colours went a little crazy. I nearly sindged some of the images so getting the heat right can be tricky...

 Then I just sewed on the buttons or the little wooden pendants I found in a sewing shop and wrapped the fabric around canvases (Using a stapler)... I thought this would look neat in Embroidery Hoops but didnt have the right sizes at the time..

There are so many possibilities you could create with these... I hope to make some more one day :)

x o x o

What makes your Heart Sing?

Little Zephyr is now 10 weeks old (and not so little anymore!) I'm finding my Rhythm slowly, but its taken what feels like forever!! I've had this constant feeling that I should be doing this or that by now, I'm not so great at enjoying just where I'm at right now,  I  guess alot of mothers can feel this?

I reakon once you become a mum you go through these phases where your so focused on keeping the house in order and making sure everyones feed and watered you forget "what makes your Heart Sing!" mind you - you dont have to be a mother to feel like this...

For me I've realised that if I don't get a little fix of this something each day I get stuck in the blues.

Soooo I've just started running or should i say plodding again, while I wish I could say that running is easy and thats why it makes my Heart Sing, I'd definatly be lying! Cause in reality Its a hard red faced puffing slog; no visions of frolicing athlets in sight - as I'm no fading violet more like a plump sunflower! I'm hoping this might be a catalyse for shedding a few excess petals!!!.... we'll see...

 I'm just started back since somewhere way back in pregnancy land so of course its gonna be a slog. But ya know I think thats all part of it, I think somewhere in side of us we were created to overcome challenges and to also Enjoy them its almost like a type of warfare against all those daily voices that are telling us we should be doing this and that or I cant do this, or could do that... So sometimes the very things that make our Hearts Sing can challange us to be more than we are already, and make us feel like we are really living rather than just exsisting...

these were some drawings I came up with one day stuck in the blues, and they helped me pick myself up and keep going :)







So my question for you this week is...
"What makes your Heart Sing?"

have a great week!

xoxo


saturday afternoon project

There is something seriously satisfying about starting and finishing something!! maybe it has to do with that sense of control we have.   I've lost count of my unfinished projects! All the intention was there but no follow through... paintings especially...dont you hate it when you have a great idea in your head but when it comes to putting itto canvas its near impossible to recreate? I used to have all these half finished paintings piled up because I gotten discouraged and given up.

Other stuff like Exercise plans that last for 3 days, and statments like "this is my last dot dot dot..." (bought coffee is a favourite in our household :) Things that we tell ourselves we will do but then are forgotten the next day. 

So I'v started setting loose some of the things from my "one day" pile, with the idea of 'finishing' rather than just forever 'starting'. And it gives the cheapest thrills... When was the last time you squeezed the last drop out of your moisturiser before indulging in a new one? Or threw away something old before replacing with something new? This also includes copious amounts of old makeup and products which we never actually use but seem to like looking at (lotions and potions as my husband describes them) - How does this all relate?

I think theres something greater that happens when we start living in a way where we arnt just all about starting somthing, because anyone can start somthing... but i believe it takes a whole lot of Heart to finish something. And it encourages something within us and builds us up from the inside. 

My challange to myself for this week - not in a crazy I MUST DO THIS sort of a way, but in a kind and it will be good for me sort of way; is to start getting out of the house for some walks - with or without the two boys...(I still havent gotten my head around how to get out with the two consistantly) at this stage I'm just keeping it real achievable ~ my starting and finishing goal.  

i'm ticking off the "one day" pile, and enjoying the small successes, starting with the achieveable - exercise, craft -
...I think as you build confidence you gain momentum...and you can start leading your heart to conquer the bigger challanges (haha like finishing that moisturiser)


This was my saturday afternoon project to start and finish this gift for a friend's 50th.

 -------- OH sweet satisfaction! :) ----

would love your feedback on your starting and finishing goals? 

x o x o