Value what you have but seek after me


Priorities can be a hard thing to get right.
I definatly am feeling a little out of balance at the moment with having new bubs and trying to ajust to the new changes...loving it :) but also feeling a little lost at times. 

but I guess the challange is that when you start to put first the most important thing then other stuff seems to fall into place...or maybe it doesnt seem to bother us so much anymore.

I'm real grateful that Gods says when we seek Him with all our heart we will find Him...

So I've been finding myself asking Him for advice and just asking him to encourage me through baby land at the moment, because I value Him and what I know He wants to show me, Its easy and not a chore to make him a priority - it sure makes a big difference to everything else...(definatly havn't perfected this but when things start to get a bit crazy it sure makes you start talking to him more!

xoxo

setting free the one day pile

One of my luxury items in life is the occasional Magazine...I love looking through the Home and living type magazines, just taking in all the yummy colours, the weird and wonderful house "stuff", and dreaming of what I'd like to do with our house (alas a rental) if I could.. then storing away all those neat little ideas in the "one day" pile...

When I was in College I went through a phase where "ond day" I wanted to be a Interior Designer and for some reason our Careers Advisor said I'd have to do Physics...dont ask me why!?... so I turned up to our first Physics class of the year only to find myself surrounded by the maths and science brains. It should have tipped me off right then and there that this might not be my forte!!

 To cut a long story short,I lasted one class and then changed to Drama, yup big career move I know :) hence that idea went out the window... Looking back I could have done a bit more investigation about my options... but ahh well It was just not meant to be...

It can be soo easy dreaming about what we could do with our lives or our homes or our jobs, dreaming so much that we stop giving things a go, ending up with one big pile of "one days"...

A friend once said to me "You can't perfect anything you haven't started".  And how true is that!

So I'm putting a challange to myself to start trying the things that have been in my "one day" pile for long enough... for me I'd love to do more painting and I have all these little ideas in my head but thats as far as I've gone...

When I was teaching Art it was painful to watch a student trying to perfect a painting on the first go. Only to make something that looked over thought and over worked; rather than letting their design grow and begin to flow through a series of pieces along with their ability...this is what I want to start to learn to do again...starting things rather than just bottling them up for some other day when everything is just right.

The flip side of all this is that you can get too imersed in what your doing, busy creating the "Perfect" palace around yourself. Always striving to make it all just that little bit better. And never satisfied with the results no matter how many times you re-arrange the ornaments...

And So it seems life is a balance of enjoying our "stuff" without letting it take over, Catching Dreams in the "one day" pile and yet remembering to set them free...
xoxo

peace in madness*

I think one of the biggest challenges as a Mum is staying encouraged and finding peace in madness!... when Day after day it can feel like ground hog day, and your chasing your tail...

1 month now after the birth of my second son "Zephyr James", I find that the mornings are the worst.  So instead of feeling full of smiles! :) I'm more like the grinch who stole christmas ready to pounce at anyone who comes near! (my poor dear husband!)and its in those moments I'm often wondering "How am I supposed to live out of that place of rest!!?". 

I would love to be one of those efficient mothers, organised, full of energy and creativity and feeling connected to God always...but I'm totally not there (Yet! haha) far from it on most days!

 But one thing that I keep coming back to is that on those days where I'm totally shattered and wondering which ways up, deep down I know where my place of rest is found, regardless of whats going on around me...

It hasnt always been this way, but since allowing God into my life and allowing him to parent me, it's changed so many things - not everything yet lol cause I'm human but He's placed peace in my Heart which flows out into my life, and its this place of rest that I go to when everything feels crazy.
 

So on those mornings aka most every morning these days! :) where the day ahead feels daunting I've found myself taking a moment to stop and listen to what God wants to speak into my heart for HE is our greatist encourager!!!!

I love that!
 On those days were we feel so insignificant and have given out of the little we had to begin with, God whispers...


"I am your greatest encourager!"

 

xoxo carolyn


Finding Light in the MIDDLE of the Tunnel

I have found that when waiting for something you can find yourself in a empty place, a stuck place... but then once whatever it is you were waiting for arrives or happens you say "Oh that wasnt soo bad was it"... but the truth was, it was a hard season and you really couldn't see the light at the end of the tunnel, even though you would try tell yourself that you could...



Waiting for the birth of my son was one of these for me. My first son was 2 weeks early so, when I went beyond my due date it felt like I'd been waiting FOREVER, then I had 5 days of labour pains before the delivery day. There definatly was one point where I thought "I'm never going to have this baby!" which sounds rediculous, but true.


We each have different tough seasons, and we cant compare them to each other for they are always very REAL and personal for us when we are in them, But it's in the middle of that tough season God wants to meet us, and bring comfort.


One day I decided not to tidy up the house or get something done but instead to STOP and take a break with God :) I sat down with a coffee and my journal and I felt like God showed me that he WANTS us to find contentment and comfort in Him during those times...right in the middle of our tough Seasons. But theres a choice involved...

See its all very well to look back on one of those times and make light of it.  But when your in it, it can be really painful and confusing. God showed me that it's during that time, right in the midst of it, you have to choose whom or what you are going to turn to...


And right then and there I choose to turn to him and allow him to encourage me, and show me that everything was going to be alright! I choose to focus on him and not on the circumstances...choosing to trust that HIS timing would be perfect for ME in my situation...



It can be a hard thing to do because we are bent towards being independant rather than dependant on God. But I'm learning that His plan for us, is not only to get that JOY and great contentment AFTER we come through somthing but that He has Great things for us, right when we are in the middle of it too!! 



I Hope you are encouraged that no matter what you might be waiting for, or what the season you are in God our Father wants to meet us there, Right where we are. I'm so gratful that he always comes to us even though we dont always go to him. 


x o x o