Topsy turvy sea*

my tree house box gets to come with me when we move!!


toystoystoystoys = lots of boxes!




Boxes + toys =



= fun!!

We moved in the weekend and its seems like with kids everything gets a bit trickier!! where did all those toys come from anyways? its like they have infested the place and you don't really notice them until you try pack them away and then its like they come alive at night like in the "nutcracker" and you find them again in a new nook....and seriously when we moved the couch... wow so that's where all the books went, who knew so much could be slid under a inch gap!!! where there's a toddler there's a way!


...sooo about that moving... I hadn't really thought about it until I was in the next house and all of a sudden I had this feeling of being totally in the deep end and out to sea far from shore...


 I didn't realise how having a secure place to live was like having a security blanket until we'd left the four walls of the last place. How quickly we can trust in things over God...we have the use of a house for the next 5weeks but after that we have no plans...I also realised that somtimes we dont deal with change very well...

During the last few weeks Gods been giving me lots of pictures - its the biggest way I hear him speak {pictures are my language, I love that he speaks to each of us uniquely and personally...}

...the picture I got after that initial sinking feeling was a picture of a boat in a bath.

And it really sums up alot at the moment as it kind of feels like we are bobbing round in water with no place to land, and no prospect of a shore to call our own...

but quite honestly I'm so used to this way of step by step living that it just seems normal now... but also only because Gods really been faithful in giving me little pictures along the way to encourage me that we are going in the right direction..and just cause theres not shore it doesnt mean theres no HOPE..

In the past when James was working full time things were super stable {bordering on boring} and it was like God was in front of us and we could clearly see our life before us, but then when we felt him wanting us to move to ChCh and do a "youth with a mission" school our lives totally changed and we have been really learning to trust in him - for everything... in the past to be honest I didn't really to do this, nor was inclined to lean on him for not just direction in life but even day to day stuff...and now its like rather than holding our hand and showing us life he's got his hands on our shoulders and it's us just stepping as he shows us our next move... and I think now that we are here, it definitely makes you feel very 'present' in life.. and i have to say I kinda like this new way...


I think sometimes God lets us feel out of our depth so that we turn our eyes back to him, but I believe that he will never let us Be out of our depth and that he always has us right in the palm of his hands...

{the lesson from the waters of Marah and Elim}
I was thinking about the this whole journey thing and thought of the Israelites and how they wandered in the desert for 40 years, for a journey that physically should have only taken 11 days!.. and it struck me that  how their journey began set the tone I believe for the rest of what would come "...for three days they travelled in the desert without finding water..." {exodus 15:22} but when they did find it, it wasn't what they were asking for and it was bitter (Marah), but rather than going to God about it, they grumbled and complained amongst themselves and found someone to blame - and in the end God did turn the water sweet, and he made good of their situation..."then he brought them to Elim which had 12 springs, it was a good place."... and it was even better than anything they'd been asking for... but their complaining in the misdt of tough circumstances I believe was part of them taking 40 years to get to the promised land rather than 11 days {geppers I dont want to take 40 years!!}  


I think its a real challenge when life throws you a curve ball, to keep your heart right and not get really negative...And so I think the biggest life lesson I'm learning at the moment is that while you may not be able to see "the promise land" and things arnt what you would have them be, its all about taking it all back to God and still dreaming about the future but all the while not letting the current circumstances make you bitter and stagnant but rather to make the most of the present circumstances...

So this whole thing about a boat floating round a bath with no land in sight is really about believing that God does have our best interests at heart but really wants us to trust in him while we float about and make the most of our situations {party at sea anyone?} and to keep DREAMING about the promise land! To not let the water go stagnant but keep stirring up the dreams he's placed within us cause when the time is right land will come into sight/ and he will smash the walls down of the bath and let that little boat free and then its gonna be another great adventure... but in the mean time I'm learning to just be happy when lifes all out of wack on this Topsy turvy sea!



xoxo


houses + walnuts + elephants = one fun bubble!

I'm writing cause I feel like i'v got all this nervous energy in me just bubbling out like some crazy woman... and just need the outlet for all my thoughts...{like all the bubbles my son is totally obsessed with at the moment - his lastest fun craze is getting us to blow him bubbles as soon as he sees the bubble mixture which we seem to sux at hiding} but anyways not the point....

 the point is, I'm so excited about what we feel like Gods prompting us to look into at the moment.. and thats buying our first house - totally crazy out of the blue never thought it would happen to you - kind of stuff.

for the last few weeks I've had this picture in my mind of a white house in a walnut shell - and its in Gods hands, i dont really know how to unpack this but i'm trying to let God show me rather than jumping to any too quick conclusions...but theres something cool in that picture i just cant see it yet...





Today james came home from church all excited cause the guy speaking was talking about his journey with God providing for him and his family and part of that was him leading them to purchase their family home and long story short this spoke to james heart that God might be saying this for us in this season too...for us with james not having a full time job the possibility of us getting a bank loan is near none, but we feel like we need to look into this all the same... so J is going to the bank proably next week to talk to them...

I got a picture for james a few wks back in relation to stuff he's working through at the moment of a elephant - but it was the story about the mouse who climbed in different parts of the elephant not knowing what this thing was - the concept of taking something bit by bit rather than looking at the whole - and I think thats what Gods asking us to do here...


 Not to look at the big picture but to just step one step at a time as we are lead and to leave the big picture stuff up to him... Cause we are just big kids after all and he doesnt want us to have to worry about all that stuff cause thats his job as our dad...



 so i'm also thinking that thing with the walnut is also about not writing off somthing that initially might not feel or look perfect in a house etc but to allow God to show us the potential within it, going back to that idea i had not so long ago about judging the walnut by its outward shell but actually seing the something of beauty within....
 ahhhh oh gosh now i'm just so darn excited! praise glory be haha!


So really its all about just doing that "one thing" that Gods nudging us to do, because thats all he want us to handle and then the rest is in his hands....

yup I think I might just be able to handle just "one thing" - gosh i love the way God works...

life is so much funner and less stressful when you just focus on that "one thing"...

...anyone want to go house shopping? ;)

xoxo

I hear your heart and it is Beautiful...


I'm so grateful that on the days I feel a bit rotten on the inside God sees me in a another way, this came to mind the other day when I was opening up walnuts... And to my surprise the ones that I thought were probably destined for the rubbish bin, were actually beautiful and rich on the inside...our hearts are a work in progress, and when we let Him, God will make it soft, so its able to recieve and give LOVE, and not be so critical... He is the one who makes it all brand new!


Ezekiel 36:26 "And I will give you a new heart, and I will put a new spirit in you. I will take out your stony, stubborn heart and give you a tender, responsive heart,a heart of flesh."

xoxo