look for the little piece of wonderful

Even if from outward perspectives we look like shambles there's always something wonderful happening on the inside too, so LOOK and find that little piece of wonderful and say "well done for that"

And so maybe the Stuff in our lives that feel uncomfortable, the stuff that challenges, maybe its allowed there for us to lean into the one who can really Heal, and correct. And help change us in the most LOVED way...

To Look forwards, to live in that place where God is constantly calling out his belief in me.

We can head towards the belief that no one believes in us. And that's a hard place to be, the lowest, even lower is when we don't believe in ourselves. 
we've all been there.

Live your life by Gods opinion of you!!

For it is good, and just hang on.

 We all have a little piece of WONDERFUL 

For it is bit by bit that any tree grows or flowers bud and grasses flourish.

 And so with tiny steps allow yourself to unravel from others stuff. And allow yourself to open up, and out. Keep yourself open, dont close yourself up.

So to all you freaks and black sheep you are YOU!!
 You are an Original, 
a Loved and WONDERFUL original version of YOU!!!!

xoxox carolyn

the greatest thing is just to love and be loved in return

Do you ever have those days where you are asking yourself what is the meaning of life?

I stumbled upon two documentaries latley Avcii true stories and the last shaman and I think it struck me with great saddness the role firstly we as parents have in shaping the future thoughts and lives course of our children but also how we all were created to have a relationship with our creator and out of that be creative in what ever form is our best fit -

In both these stories these two men were searching how to get there - as we all are, but it was with a sadness looking on just seeing at what point was it enough.
 Avcii committed suicide this year. if only he'd known that his love for music could have been for more than just entertainment.
 But that it could have been out of a response to the creator of the universe. James who featured in the last shaman was trying to find his place in the world, wanting to be free of depression and yet putting himself through what looked like hell to get there as he dabbled in asian medicine.. I dont know where he is now but I wonder what and how different his life could be if he know that he could have a relationship with the creator of love itself. That he could know his worth just as he was.

And then I look to my own life. I sometimes feel a struggle to fit into my family. To feel loved. and to have a realationship with God, who created me. He knows everything about me, but often I forget to talk about the things that I'm struggling with in a day. Why do we find living so hard? And then I look around me and see the wild nature of my 5 boys. 5 Boys!! and I tell myself hey you are doing so well, do not let the opions of others and even your own make you feel small.

And I think of the saying the greatest thing in all the world is just to love and be loved in return.

And I am

And you are

we were created to be loved and to reflect this back around us. my constant work on is the "to love" part - to love myself and love others....

We can live out of this place, and it doesnt matter what our occupation is or the success of our natural life. Because at the end of the day the scale is even and there is no one better than each other.

You could be in the middle of the amazon or in the middle of a sea of music ravers and nothing will seperate you from this eternal way.

And so I sit here looking at my imperfect surroundings but with a sense of deep peace that I am loved and have love to give. Connected to the creator....

xoxo carolyn

Surviving travelling with 5 Boys 7 years and under

When we first started realising that going to Norway to do a Family Ministries School  in Norway one of the first things I did was start Pinteresting "travelling with boys" I even put into google "travelling with 5 boys" hoping that there might be some other crazy family like us. 
.......but there wernt haha

I did come across familys with 4 children but there were alot of girls in that one and never all boys!

So I was determined to write after our travels - maybe even just for that "other family" with all boys who one day will travel the world :) 

hehe as for me and my house we are now settling back into home and airports, trains, buses and taxis feel like a distant memory but I'm my next post once I can transfer some photos from my Husbands ph I will endevour to do a write up on our trip across to the other side of the world 

xoxo Carolyn